Father, help me walk the straight and narrow.
Help me walk towards your light.
One foot in front of the other, heel toe, heel toe.
Keeping my eyes on the prize as I go.
I am aware of the dark abyss on either side of me as I walk this narrow beam.
Help me balance Lord. Keep my eyes fixed on you.
The darkness beneath tells me lies about who I am and who I serve.
Teetering to one side, I am pulled by pride.
Teetering to the other I am pulled to worry and despair.
Anxiety and pride fall far beneath me and my way is secure.
Though this path is narrow, the freedom to move and dance is infinite in your love.
But looking around, losing my focus, I fall prey to the lies and find myself in chains. Chains of people pleasing, fear, anxiety and then depression.
But you tell me that your eye is on the sparrow and even more so on me. You remind me to focus on the truth.
Thank you Lord, for taking care of me.
Amen.
How can I walk this beam with any kind of joy, any kind of freedom and hope when life has hit me with heartache upon heartache?
It is the Light! I tell you it is the beautiful light of love drawing me to look at him even in the middle of the darkness.
Keep focused, keep walking
and yes…
fall apart,
Tell him all of your heartaches.
Tell him all that you are angry about.
Tell him all that you worry about.
Lay it down, let it all fall from your weary head.
The weight is more than you are to bear alone.
He is with you at every step…
in your darkest journey,
in the gray mundane of waiting,
in the blue sky of happiness.
But what if he feels far away?
Be still.
Persevere.
There are seasons like that.
He is with you always, never leaving you.
Wait upon the Lord. Seek him with all of your heart. For he is not only right before you, but behind you, and all around you.
You are secure, held and loved.